WHATEVERRRRRRRRRR

 should've known that nothing good would happen to me my life is one big joke

With regards to my facebook status, which now reads

"

Huiwen Yeo

would dearly like the people who DON'T KNOW HER to STOP ADDING HER ON FACEBOOK. DO YOU GO UP TO RANDOM PEOPLE ON THE STREET AND MAKE FRIENDS WITH THEM? NO? THEN DON'T DO IT ON THE INTERNET EITHER. ESPECIALLY THE CREEPY ONES. STAY AWAY THANKS THERE IS NOTHING ATTRACTIVE ABOUT MY PERSONALITY. I AM REPULSIVE AND SO ARE YOU"

I justify my "bold hostility" with this:


now don't tell me this is not absolutely creepy alright.

I am back!!!!!111oneone!!

Alright actually I just ate dinner and decided that I should post a few pictures since I have a 5 megapixel camera phone I should probably put it to good use. Plus I'm mega full and will not do math now. So here goes!

 

i love chemm

 romeo save me ive been feeling so alone i keep waiting for you but you never come is this in my head i dont know what to think

zk: (during lecture): eh how come got hwa chong guy here one?

(upon closer inspection)

zk: oh, its gia.


hahahahahahahaha prom king ftw 

 This is from my GP paper:


Guess what?

It is 11.33 and I'm still giddy from excitement because of the day's events.

Fell asleep during GP and had 3 hours of econs consecutively thereafter before having batik painting. My painting is awesome I'm going to frame it up because I am a shameless, shameless person =)
 
Am kinda proud of my handiwork. It was quite fun though I was dreading it at first. Oh well, it provided a lot of fun :D

After that J2 farewell commenced. The J1s are crazy, they chartered a bus to bring us to Pek's house. And when we reached the street we were told to get off the bus because it was not authorized to go in any further. Which was when we saw a minibus waiting there to drive us ALL the way in. Madness, we are super pampered seniors please.

They showed us this super cute video of themselves which cannot be described here its just so..... typical of ultimate people to be retarded like that, but it was sweet, I like :) I also like the part where Weekian got shitasspwned by Pek and Sampson, that was good, juniors you all are carrying on our legacy well!

Then they presented each of us with a board

 and a medal


Haha, super cute! 
This is what Ultimate's about. It's not about the Gold, it's about the people that make the fighting worthwhile.

Didn't really do much but just mingle in Pek's house doing brainless thing like playing piano and playing bridge and stuff. But seriously it totally beats our j2 farewell last year hands down. Oops!

Hahaha, am flushed with happiness now :D I've never made a better decision than to join frisbee, whee!

This week has been TUMULTUOUS, and thank God it is over, seriously. With the return of the (much dreaded) CT results, my life has begun descending into a cesspit as the reality that prelims are 8 weeks away has finally sunk it. My parents are not pleased with my grades, and neither am I, but all that will change come prelims.

My very sorry self has also been exposed to a whole array of insults from the patriarch who constantly reminds me that I am stupid. This includes likening me to an ITE student who is very happy with getting a pass (c'mon passing econs is an achievement already, that blasted subject), telling me that his expectations are lowered to an average of C so that i can enter POLY, and wanting to teach me to fry vegetables to equip me with skills so that I can be a chef in future and do catering jobs. 

It makes me sooooo mad.

This weekend has been nothing short of emotionally turbulent, honestly. For one, it was The Inter-JC of our lives, the day where all our hard work for 2 years will culminate and the one day of judgment for the year's efforts. I was pretty much looking forward to it, because I've had a trying week both in terms of academics and frisbee and would dearly like to prove myself. Alas, I twisted my ankle while doing warm-ups and therefore did not play in the competition except ONE point in the finals during which I realised that I could run. I know, life sucks. 

It really feels weird now, because I have so many regrets, so much disappointment, and it is an abrupt end to the year of training, to watch my team fighting their heart and soul out and not being able to be there, on the field, fighting alongside them for the Gold that we all want, as it should have been. So where the relief and joy of inter-JC ending should be is instead a void in my heart.

We ended up getting a silver instead of the Gold that we had poised ourselves to achieve. Of course, there is disappointment and sadness, but ultimately I know that the team had put in their best (it SUCKS to not be saying OUR best) and that alone is worth celebrating already. There are so many feelings I am feeling right now, as the adrenaline from yesterday's events have worn off and the floodgates to fatigue and emotions have been flung open.

Surely there would be sadness - something all teams (except the winning team) would have felt yesterday. It sucks to be training your guts out day after day and still not win, especially when you know you came so close to winning it already. There is relief, that the tension is over and normal life can thus resume and life is much more settled now. But most of all there is pride. That a team can come from being a group of chapalang people from different classes and different social circles and different personalities to a TEAM that does not yell at each other and works together for a common goal playing a sport that we love (and I share a love-hate relationship with).

I really am honoured to have trained alongside so many people that are so passionate about this sport and give it their all to train, to win and it is really my regret that I was not able to play Inter-JC 09. It really does hurt in more ways than one and I feel like I don't deserve to be feeling all these emotions because I didn't fight on the field yesterday.

But I will not be sad that it is over but really rejoice that I am part of this amazing team that has tolerated my tempers and shitty playing and helped me to improve and fight even harder to get where I want to go, and I really thank all of you (if you are reading) for being in my life and making it so much of a joy. The trainings under the sweltering heat and unbearable humidity, though terrible, would be even worse without you guys that cheer me up and make my training time a HELL of a good time (mostly, anyway). And the outings that we so spontaneously have has made my JC life 10 times more fun than it has even been. I thank you all for epitomizing everything I want in a team. This team is not perfect, but who's to say what's perfect anyway? At the end of The Day, we worked through it all and emerged stronger faster better and UNITED as raffles Team A, which makes me so unbelievable proud to be part of you awesome awesome people. (Am particularly proud of being in a team where the guys are not afraid to cry and SHOW THEIR EMOTIONS)

We have fought the good fight, we have finished the race, we have kept the faith. Thank you Team A – each and every one of you – for a wonderful experience this year.

But of course there is the rest of Raffles Ultimate. To the J1s, after getting over the initial skepticism about how you all would turn out to be and whether frisbee would continue to be known as the CCA will the people that are MADCRAZY over their sport and full of weird people (HAHA), I really noticed that you all are a bunch of really fun-loving people and I am so glad to have you all in frisbee. To the J2s, I REALLY CANNOT CANNOT ASK FOR MORE because you all have brightened up my life by so so much and I know I can turn to you guys for ANYTHING – help in math (cheng), help in chem (WEEKIAN #2 IN LEVEL), help with crazy emotions and weirdness (MICHELLE YOU ARE MY GIRLLL) and most of all, GOSSIP (zhefei HAHA feifei) and the rest of you too like brian and his weird gay fantasies, chenyang.. for the same reason, hannah for her ever calming aura, guangyu for his POSITIVE ENERGY!!!!!, nickyun for his lewd jokes that no one ever takes offense at, puhwai for his awesome photography skills and weird noises of disapproval, joshua for his uncontrollable laughter, jarrell for his little-boyness that guangyu just can't resist, yixuan for always trying to help me THANKYOU I LOVE YOU and SO MANY OTHER OF YOU THAT I CANNOT LIST DOWN IF NOT THIS POST WILL BE SO LONG. 

Like Michelle, joining frisbee is one of the best decisions ever made, and is something I will not regret EVER. I love you guys <33333

Today was NOT a good day. And that is a gross understatement I can't even begin to describe how awful it was. Woke up to the sound of my mother scolding me for not locking the door after I came home from a tiring training last night. To hear that the moment you open your eyes to a hopefully nice new day is disconcerting and pretty much ruined my mood for the day.

Going to school didn't make things much better. Arrived to the news that INTER-JC was postponed due to H1N1 case among CJC and thus was shifted to a week later. I went ballistic considering that I was geared up for inter-JC in the sense that I abandoned my schoolwork for this week to train for the last week of frisbee and they tell me I have to do it for another week. Not good.
Then lesson started. Well yes, I didn't do my tutorial because I fell asleep while reading the notes last night, and since it was the last week of play before full force studying for A levels, I thought it'd be okay to leave out the tutorial first and do it next week. Good golly I was made to stand outside the classroom in punishment for my 'lackadaisical attitude' even though this is the first time I am late in doing tutorials and then RAILED and YELLED and SHOUTED at for my recalcitrant manner in which I displayed my disapproval and unhappiness. Said tutor then went on to tell me that I ought to control my temper (HAHA THAT COMING FROM ____). In my own defense, I said that it was the first time that I hadn't done my work and ___ went on to rail at me further telling me that "IF YOU KILL SOMEONE YOU WANT ANOTHER CHANCE?" because we ALL can CLEARLY see the link between killing someone and NOT DOING A TUTORIAL - something various members of my class do on a regular basis. Words cannot describe my anger at this I was pretty much imploding inside and was just a tiny bit away from railing back - of which I am fully capable of.

I then proceeded to sublimate my rage with fried chicken and fish. If I grow fat it is said person's fault. Am refraining from scolding said person because knowing his/her maliciousness he/she is fully capable of making my life a cesspit.

The rest of the day was comparatively better, with the team going to Huchu's house to watch frisbee videos. Am pretty much pumped up for inter-JC now and will try my best for tomorrow's competition!
Will now end my shitty day by going to sleep and not giving anymore time for shit to occur within this day. Goodnight world, wish me luck!




I will no longer cry and let you have the pride of knowing that you can evoke such a response in me. WAIT AND SEE, I WILL GET GOOD GRADES AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS

It's been an awesome 3 days since I last blogged (K, I realised I used the word awesome way too much, but that's a good thing!).

Sunday was good. Had church in the morning before I went to meet Yx at Dhoby Ghaut to get Jarrell's and Ph's presents. The heavy burden of purchasing gifts likes squarely on our shoulders and we went forth with gusto! Anyhoo by the time this post is published they are already happily using their laptop sleeve and earphones respectively, and should know of the dilemmas we went through to get it for them. BE APPRECIATIVE, FRIENDS!

Walked around buying good food before traipsing down to Turf City for a scrumptious dinner on PH and Jarrell's tab. AM APPRECIATIVE, FRIENDS! Definitely could not remember the last time I ate so much. I outlasted Yx and pretty much everyone else at the table (it was a buffet), and still had room for more but decided not to push the limits any further. Ph terms me the bottomless pit. It is sad just how true that statement is.
Had cake and went home. It was goooooooooood.

Training again yesterday which was rather tiring and is pretty much the cause of my aching shoulder (think: hucking repeatedly) and awful fatigue today. It was fun though, I finally did something remotely useful on the field which I have not done since my stupid injury which chooses to occur at the most inopportune moments. On the bright side, at least I still can play Inter-JC, albeit not in better condition as I would have it.

Went to Leeqi's house after that to play guitar hero in which I presumable failed at because my contact lens had dried up and supremely uncomfortable especially when you have to stare at multi-coloured buttons on the telly and press them in rapid succession while trying to keep to the rhythm and not deafen the unfortunate people who happen to be watching you play. That game is almost stressful, I swear. Ended the day with a nice dinner at Parkway with Zk, LQ and Yx - definitely a stellar way to end the Youth Day Holiday.

The Holiday went as fast as it came, and today again I had to go through the painful routine of school which can be summarized into: get scolded, try to keep awake, try not to freeze, pretend to be awake. Basically by the end of the day my attention span was abysmally short and could only perform simple psychomotor tasks and was completely bereft of the ability to hold any intellectual conversation/perform daunting tasks such as reading.

Am here trying to piece fragments of my thoughts and recover my cognitive ability. It is somewhat working, except that I realise I am expending an inordinate amount of energy trying to do this and am still typing in short sentences with the descriptive standard of a 9-year-old.
K shall post a picture to make up for it!

Heehee :D
 

This predictable post-CTs post is coming one day late because I was preoccupied with enjoying my temporal reprieve from the evil that is academia, and therefore was unable to find time to come online and blog about it. Then again it's not really much of a respite because I haven't been studying half as hard as I ought to have and the relaxation after CTs is a tad overrated. Then again, anything beats knowing that you have to study for tests or face impending doom.

After the last test yesterday, the whole hall promptly flung their hands in the air and flail it around in jubilation (I exaggerate) and went off to celebrate in ways they've probably been planning for ages. The frisbee gang went to watch Megan 2 - otherwise know as Transformers 2 - which proved an average movie if you're a guy and pretty boring movie if you're a girl. The movie made me giddy and confused at the start and towards the end it was pretty much distracting the lack of plot with Megan Fox's healthy assets, which was zoomed in on and put on slow motion - WHILE SHE WAS RUNNING. Definitely a movie made for guys. And some girls too.. if you swing that way.

Proceeded to The Mind Cafe where we played munchkin. Wasn't half as fun as the last time we played it which entailed a 3 hour long game in the wee hours of the morning. The 2 hour session was spent just backstabbing and plotting against each other and refilling our drinks repeatedly which resulted in my frequent visits to the restroom which only had one cubicle and many people with urgent needs queueing outside.

Walked around till late (JUST BECAUSE I CAN!) and then went home for a night of good sleep which was cut short because of training this morning. For the first time in a long time I actually did something useful since I sprained my ankle, very happy! After which I am promptly thrown back into the reality that the A levels are fast approaching and had tuition. Yes, the day after exams ended. My life is good.

 Today was an awesome day. Partly because it was the chem paper, and it being the subject I studied most for was more comforting than the Math paper and is therefore something to delight in. Partly because I finally went to exercise after a long hiatus from physical activity of any sort and the most strenuous physical exertion would have to be attempting to solve stupid math questions late at night.

The temperature check are getting on my nerves because my stupid thermometer takes longer than everyone else's and I stand there looking like a moron with a stick in my mouth waiting to paste a green sticker on my collar. Yx also brought to our attention that gatherings are disallowed even if it is confirmed that  everyone is healthy but it is of high importance that we gather in a designated area to take our temperature every day, where everyone's state of health is uncertain..

The RI gate too, cannot be used even if you've already walked all the way there and it is wide open, and one is made to walk the long and arduous journey back to the main gate to exit even though no signing out is required. Terribly stupid. Luckily, Yx and I managed to run out of the gate when the guard had his back turned to us :D

3 down, 1 to go. Not checking entry for errors blahblah I'm busy watching tv

 OUCH.

 Here I am, perched on a lonely spot in the study, typing on my laptop while my beautifully typed econs notes print themselves (and I am sitting on the floor because the cable is there, not because I have a particular liking for hard surfaces). Just me and my mac, I like it.

This holidays i've found lots of new sites to read that are constantly updated with stuff like FML, GMH, MLIA (lousy, don't bother, and MLIG. But my favourite is still FML and iamneurotic because it's just funny to see what quirks other people have, and i find myself having those same quirks too! I guess I am sort of neurotic and OCD-ish the way I always wash my hands up to my elbow or how I wash my hands after touching doorknobs/switches, whenever it is convenient, that is. At least I'm not alone =) Someone buy me a Dettol hand sanitizer please!

This month has been a month of good food. been eating so much and stuffing myself silly with rich food at every available opportunity that arises, and not exercising much mainly due to my ankle and the duty to confine myself to the study chair and read notes non-stop. (though I must say that I am terrible, tragically, unfortunately ill-disciplined). I hope to high heavens that CTs will be postponed. Yes, 2 days before my Econs paper and I haven't so much as glanced through my lecture notes. I need to be shot. I also need postponement of the exams and divine intervention for some miracle to pull me through this apocalypse.

It's been a long time since I started typing this post and my printer is still hard at work.
K and now its done, I have to fulfill my obligation as a student and STUDY NOW.

ROARRRRR the school website with my much-needed math solutions is UNDER MAINTENANCE. This always happens I tell you, life is damn tough. Just a few days ago it was down and I was glad to have it back and now that i need to know how to do integration and clear the cobwebs off my atrophying brain, THE PERILS OF THE INTERNET WON'T LET ME! Honestly, the cosmic forces of the universe throw me into the throngs of agony sometimes, especially since I hate not knowing how to do sums and my patience in trying has worn only too thin.

Seriously, now that MJ has passed away everyone's talking about it on their blogs about how they inspired their lives and posting music videos and stuff. You couldn't have done it when he was still around? Suddenly now that he's gone he's your idol and your best friend and your music inspiration? HONESTLY.

Rantyrantyrantyranty. 

 Yup activity on the blog has dwindled low again, but that's because the last week of holidays is for intensive mugging though I'm not seeing that happening just yet. It is thursday. Am really dead, will start soon!

I hate studying sometimes ><

BE BACK SOON.